Alone

Today was the first holiday without K and it was harder than I thought it was going to be. I almost cried this morning after reading Parker's card to him by myself. I just feel so alone. And his dad didn't call to wish him a happy Easter. AND he most likely isn't coming for his birthday after making a huge fuss about wanting to be here. He got into a car accident and doesn't want to visit if he has a cast on. I feel so much more empathy for my mom. She had her sister, but she was still raising me alone. It's not easy. I'll post more about Easter later when I am up to it. It was a nice day actually despite the tone of this post.